its been 4 months since i saw him & tlgang nami2ss ko n sya..pro what can i do? it seems that i have love the wrong person...but still tha pain keeps on hurting me & kung wlang mgb2gay ng gmot pra dito...baka ma2tay ako....

to give u background bout my lyf,everything seems to be fine except dun sa time na dumating ung hinayupak ja la2ke n yun.. hehehe..kung curious kyo bout dun sa guy..best friend ko po un kso lng iba ang nagyri sa time passes by...
classm8t ko sya nung highschool, bok pa nga ang twgan nmen eh..oh db sweet? di na ko iba sa knya & gnun din sya sken...kung d nga lng ako nging gurl bka naiuwi na ako nun sa house nila & bka lhat ng gwaing png brusko eh pingawa nun sken...

highskul cyempre ay prom..wla cyang date, same as me.. i know that he wanted to invite me to be his date pro ang ogag nga kc nun kaya last minute tsak lng sya nag ask. he went 2 our house...naka wheels po sya and medyo pwisan pero infairness..mbango prin..

he ask my permission to see my dress for the prom..cyempre pra mloka sya skin at konting surprise...i refuse.. o cge,medyo n frustrate sya pro hndi ung nging hadlng pra invite nya ko...so cute ko n to...cyempre anf dmimuna pa effect.. hangang s ask nya akung if i have a date..eh kung d b nman sya abnormal eh..pa2yag ba me n makipagdate sa iba eh sya lng ang gus2 ko...lamo yun..srap sampalin..so in short, papilit pa ba ako...?cyempre....

the nyt of my life came, i was so pretty sbi ng nang-uu2 kong ina..pro naniwla lang ako ng sya na ang nagsbi...blush ako ever...khit lam kong gnda me since birth( kapal no )iba pren pg s knya gling....

we enjoyed that nyt & lalo ko lng nptunayan sa sarili ko n mhal ko n pla ang bestfriend ko...
syem pre ano pa ba ang sunod ne event sa prom kundi graduation n db? the nyt b4 the graduation, we talked on the phone na pra bng it would be tha last time na we talked to each other...i've wanted for the moment na mabaangit nya na may feelings din sya & hindi me nagkamali...aks nya ako if there is possibility daw n mging kmi...i know na maiinis kyo sken dhil lam nyo ba ang sgot ko?..ah,eh..hndi pwede kc bestfriend tyo..ung mga anak n lng ntin ung ipag partner nten...sa isp..isp ko ang tanga!!! pno ko nsbi ang gnong words pro wla na meng mag2wa..alangan n bawiin ko pa eh nahuli naman ako db? pro im so foolish tlga..

cyempre collage na...im so proud to say na npunta nama ako sa mgandang skul and take note..preho kme ng skul..ano to?kailangan bng i2loy ang naudlot na pagma2halan namen?...hehehehe...

nagkabf ako for a year * a half..minahal ko sya, pro there are these conflicts & problems na dn kyang ayusin..in short..nag break po kame..
i guess god meant that to happened kc yon din yung time na ngkita kmi ng best ko..so sobrang miss nmen ang isat-isa..sbay kming umuwi, kumain, pumasok... im happy pro prang lalo ko lng pinhirpan ang srili ko dhil my feelings ako for that guy...buti n lng mgling akong mgtago at magpigil..hehehe..

1 morning, im so bust preparing my project that would be pass on the same day...i know he already arrived and he is in my back...pro dhil sa sobrang pressure sa project...gusto ko man syang yakapain...syempre ma2yang gabi n db?hehehe..dko sya masyadong napancin....
may inabot syang letter sken he asked if i could join hia sa lunch...i said yes..then,alis n sya, he know naman n im busye eh...

when i was about to enter the room,somebody bumped me & my prcious project fell... gus2 ko mang magalet...what can i do?? instead i ask my prof to give me another chance to do my project naala ko c mokong...the lunch date..kinuha ko cell ko to txt him that i cant come to our meeting..e kaso...pag tinamaan k nga ng malas...check operator ako... i tried to look for friends or other ka kila2 pro mlas tlga eh...

& so i took my lunch all by my self..naalala ko ung letter...hinanap ko sa bag...WALA!!! bumlik me sa coridor praing na andon p yung sulat...wla ren..god why? minsan lng mgbigay ng sulat yun...nawala pa.. dont know how to tell him about the letter...

& so days & weeks passed,pag nagmita kme..d nya ako pinapansin...me i tried to talk to hi pero lam kong may kslanan ako pro gnn ba kalaki ang ngwa kong di pgpunta at gnon n lng ang iwas nya?...cge...hinayaan ko na lng...

months ang binilang... i heard that he was dating a gurl from the same skul that we are in...masakit...na sa iba ko pa narinig an sila na...mas masakit na wala na akong halaga sa kanya...

basta ilang araw din un n gnon ang feelings ko..weeks...months...gagraduate na po ako... i wonder what's instore for me in my last day in skul...& so i thought n punthan yung favorite na hang out namen...when i was about to get near the place...i saw him..w/gurl...umiiyak ang bruha but i cant hear what they are talking about... so i've decided to get outof that place b4 my tears burst otu...& then a common frend ang sumalobong skin... sying n buntis ung gurl...syempre..durog n durog ang puso ko...kung kaya nya lang ma i magine yung nara2mdaman ko...

the nyt of that same day..naloka ang lola nyo...nagprmdan ang best ko pagkatgl tgl n pnhon... i though it wassomething gud for me...for us..but i was wrong..he gave me a wedding invitation& isa me ako sa mga bridesmaind...the girl...she was waitiing in the car...

and so the wedding came..mganda oi ako nun...sabi ng nanay ko pra wala ng secong the motioneh...so naniwala na lng ako sa nanay ko...then,there was this professor who came to see me...he handed over a letter w/ my name carefully printed on the enveloped...he said that he lloked for the owner of that letter kso lng po malaki ang skul nmin kya mhirap magkahanapan db? & so nung nkita nya name ko sa invitation,he deceided to bring the letter thinking that it could save souls daw....

and so i was about to open the letter when the priest ask kung cno ang tutol...dedma ako... alangan naman na mangulo p ako noh....

binasa ko ang letter...nakakatouch po tlaga...he opned up his feelings for me...hoping na merondin daw akong feeling for him...he ask that if i will show up to our hang out the next day after i also heave feeling for him & that he would love me for the rest of our lives...but if i wont...then he will never open the topic again...he pleaded to me na sana pumunta ako...

if only i have the letter...if only i knew about it...kung di lang ako clumsy and careless to keep that letter...things would be different...if only....

and so i heard the priest announced the couple as a husband and wife...ans sakit...sobrang sakit....prang gustong sumabog ang puso ko ng marining ang salitang yon....

picture taking...gusto mang sumabaog ng dibdib ko...as you know...magaling akong magpigil...pero masakit po tlaga sobra...

after the picture taking...niyakap ako ng bestfriend ko....ang higpit...and teary eyed nyAng cnabi na.....

U STILL LOVE YOU......

grabe katangahan ba ito oh tlang hindi kami pra sa isat-isa...???kya gnun ang nangyari...ano kaya ang mapa2yo nyo
so please guy kung alam nyo yung song na FOR ALL OF MY LIFE... pa send naman ako thankz......

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