Eto na ata ang pinakamasakit na salitang maririnig ng isang babae. Paano ko alam? I was once a Kabit.
I did not do it intentionally. I was led to believe that he was not married. Ang tanga ko nga lang, all the signs were there, ewan ko ba kung bakit naniniwala ako sa kanya. He was very charming and handsome. We work in the same company. Dumating yung time na tumatawag na yung asawa nya sa work ko and saying all those trash things about me. It hurts a lot pero naniwala pa rin ako sa kanya. Hangang sa nabuntis ako, he asked me to marry him in Hongkong. He was even the one who told my parents about my pregnancy. I fought for him sa parents ko. Then I found out na buntis din yung asawa nya. Putangna, para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. I knew then that I was only blinded by deep need of somebody to be with. I still made myself believe that it will still work out. Hangang sa 6th month ko, It was December 24, He asked me to go to their office, niyakap nya ako and he gave his gift to me. While hugging me, he told me that he loves me….I was silent and then again he asked me if I love him, sabi ko Hindi….then you thought I was kidding but I stood firm on my answer. You stared at me and then we fought…
I cried going to my car. I left you a note explaining why I did that. Eversince then we did not mind each other. Eventhough we work in the same company, we tried to stay out of each other’s way. I was hurting so much but I had to do what I had to do even though I love you so much. Coz u see, my Dad did that to my Mom too and it took a long time for me to forgive him or his love son. I don’t want his kid to his wife to get mad at him. I know the feeling. It was a decision that has to be made based on what’s right.
I did not regret that decision though. We are friends now and he is (I hope) happily married already. We are now working successfully abroad but different countries. We email each other once in a while to talk about our son and that’s it. We both have our separate lives and that’s how it should be. Thank God for the courage.
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