I want to be there and take care of you but would you want it? would you want me? I feel so restless, knowing that you are all alone. And maybe, trying to be okay when you are not, telling everybody that they should not worry about you and then maybe, they'll let you be. Not me, definitely not me. Because I know you, you don't want people to worry about you, you don't want them to be too concern about you. I know you too well.

That's why I went there. You look tired, you look hungry, you look so sad. I wanted to hug you but I restrained myself for doing so. So I asked a silly question, "Are you okay?" shit! of course you are not! , you said, "Yes I am but would you like to come in?"

I'm not going to lie but that surprised me, I said "Can I?", you laughed and said, "Of course, it's raining, mababasa ka."

You offered me coffee, said yes then awkward moment. So much for a Dead-Air, I don't know but I can't seem to find my tongue and talk to you, then I just heard you saying, "Thank you, I appreciate this. But you woke me up, I'm having a great dream, ako daw si Superman." then you laughed. "Superman? Sa sipon nga madali ka nang mahawa tapos ikaw si Superman? Are you kidding me?". And he said, "Kaya nga panaginip eh, you can be anybody you want and anywhere you want." So I asked, "With whom and where?". He looked at me and said, "I'd rather not say." It breaks my heart because I know who and where you want to be.

Then they came, I saw your eyes light up more, were you lonely? were you sad?

Then Andrew called, telling me to go home. He said, "You should go, thank you again for dropping by."

I just nodded and walked away. I was actually waiting for you to stop me from leaving because I really wanted to stay but I know you won't let me.

But that's okay, because when you let me in, made me coffee and talked to me was more than enough for me to be happy that day.

If only I could take care of you for the rest of your life, I would. I miss you as always.

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